Looking for the future

The next 4 days will be my 29th birthday
Only take a year to be 30 years old
How fast is a life walking through the time
What have I done during my almost 29 years in the living?
And what is the meaning of life itself?

Many people with many destiny
And what is my destiny in life?
Will be a surgeon..
Or will be anything else
That I never wonder what it is

I pray and ask the Only one mighty soul
That question is even harder to arrange
I rebuild every memory and wish upon this breath
That searching for it has led my puzzle of life
To be questioned in every corner of my brain

Dear God
So long, this time still I am looking for the future
What is it?
I just want to be like every body else
But it is then a proof
That I am someone else different
I know You know me better than I know about myself
I know you handle it with love and justice
With knowledge that is too high for my ability in measuring
So long, God
Will I have the future like everybody else?
Because during this indifference
I want to be the commoner

Dear God,
If it is about the persistence destiny
Give me your power
Just a little bit
To make me stronger in walking my path of the living
and in enriching my soul
With your biggest blessing
So I never cry again alone that I am indifference